RabbitUnderground

hello dear watchers and random people who decided to click on my rather odd name.

has it really been a year since my last drawing? how horrible. geez, i've been reading some of my journal entries and they seem sort of dull and sad. i guess i can attribute that to how i've felt towards creating art.

i do not have any news. the only thing i can say is that this year has not been the best. although, i must say that there are many moments that make me smile when i recall them.

my art block is receding slowly. i am now doodling more and am attempting to finish my paper clay doll that i may or may not post. in terms of how long it will be until another piece is finished, i'm not sure. i will finish when i finish, but for my sake, i hope it will be soon. i have many other ideas that i would like to execute but i can't seem to do so without finishing this one piece that i have been working on many weeks on and off.

i currently have a lot of studying to do and many assignments to write, which is probably true for some of you as well. i wish all of us luck in this process.

i am content with where i am now. i'm stressed and frustrated but i'm going to overcome these feelings and process in my work of this piece.

toodles. 

hello fellow watchers.

the term paper is done.
thank goodness.

now... who is ready for finals? not me.

seriously, with all the things that are going on, i'm having stress attacks constantly. i wouldn't call them panic attacks but when i start thinking of how much i still have to do and learn, it just... urgh. and i don't even have a job. i would probably faint somewhere if i did. i have so much respect for people who work and go to school.

i've been sleeping a lot too. "it's winter, you get more tired." ... no. i get super tired. i like having dreams too, so that might have been playing a role. it's like a good movie, and you don't want to click pause. i don't want to wake up until i finish it. urgh.

oh yes.
so, i went on a legit shopping spree. because of the cyber monday... can i just say how wonderful this is? free shipping on everything? prints especially? yes. yes. fantastical time of magical greatness and awesomeness.
so yes, i bought a dozen smaller prints. i don't mind. i rather have a few small ones and frame them up on my wall. i will probably end up doing that. i do love prints.

i have also ended up favoring a lot of wonderful art pieces while i was searching for wonderful prints to purchase. this site is filled with talented people. i get so inspired while browsing too!

anyway.
what else is new?
i'll probably upload something soonish. i don't really have much of a life now. it's just mostly course picking and 'getting ready for finals' time. everyone is busy. i'm busy. it's fantastic.

have a good day people! take advantage of the free shipping!

that 'the universe really dislikes me' moment.

let me explain what i mean.

a day or two before remembrance day, i dug up some of my old sketches because suddenly, i got this really weird inspiration to draw something up. i'm sick of making promises and not keeping them with regards to updating my gallery with some new works. so i basically went 'what-effin-ever' and told myself to work on something. anything.

i have this really old drawing i did two years ago. since i really wanted to do something for remembrance day, i decided to tweak the face and provide a concept for it, using some things from another sketch as well. so, in short, i had an abstract sketch, redid that sketch with a theme, and decided to use the stock of the second sketch and the abstractness of the first one together to make a moving painting.

i worked 6 hours+ on just the face. that should illustrate the kind of perfectionist i am. honestly, i should really just work on some 'looser' things.

anyway. as i am working on this piece and constantly re-working the hair and the face, i realize... i have a term paper due in a week. yay.

so i really don't have time to finish it. my term paper is due wednesday and i'm pretty sure i will not have much of a life (nor will i sleep well) until that's done.

...
the universe does hate me a little. right when i'm inspired to get out of this goddamn art block, i have a bunch of school work to be attending to.

so at the moment, i'm just staring at this watercolor piece with a sad expression on my face. i really should start on that term paper. off to read the books i brought from the library.

good day to you and i hope things like this don't happen to you, fellow artists.
i shall reply to all your wonderful comments after wednesday.

oh, and i'm working on a digital piece but i can't bring myself to sit in front of the computer shading for too long, so that piece won't see the light of day in a while... :l

thank you for watching me and favoring my work. and of course, constructive criticism is always welcomed.

have a great day~

p.s. has anyone else been having trouble with deviantart lately? i use firefox and so far, the only things that were glitching for me is the "select mood" on journals, and the "edit page"/the whole "move widget or get a new widget" profile changer thing. it's bothering me. i don't want to keep having to switch to explorer. :c

hi my dear watchers.

thank you so much for sticking with me through these first months.
and they have not been glorious ones.

i seemed to have neglected my art.
you might think "you don't say?" and point to the only actual work in my gallery.
i would smile.

i think the main reason for this is that even though i am working with a loose media tool (watercolors), i am still a perfectionist. making mistakes does not make me happy. thus, to avoid that feeling of complete failure, i just doodle and do not put more than an hour into my work.

it is quite sad that i just now put this in writing.
and as i am writing this, i made several of these so called mistakes on my new piece. i would like to rip it into many tiny pieces, but the sketching is actually more painful than the outlining so i'm going to go with it, and make it better somehow.

so i apologize.
i really should have a piece ready either today or sometime early next week.
really.
i am going to do this.

i am going to think of how much i need to finish this, and i am going to think of you wonderful watchers who i would like to show some more of my art to. c:

and of course anyone who passes my my gallery. i do not want all of these to be empty words.

good day!

ah hello watchers and fellow people of the world.

i went on a picnic today. i planned it but it was mostly the contribution of my friends to it that made it so special.

i hit my head on a playground bar, my shoulders got burnt from the sun and my leg is acting up.

... at least it was fun. it was one event that i really looked forward to to attending before school started and people got busy with their vacations and jobs.

art. art. art.
i need to work on stuff tomorrow. i have so many things to do and i have been procrastinating.
now that i start school again (summer semester), i hope that i fall into the rhythm of being a bit more productive.

i made a list of things to do before the summer ends. let's see how i do. c:

- send a package to Yuyi (paint a watercolor piece, sew sarubobos, find things to send)
- send a video to my grandparents
- finish clay doll
- finish thank you art
- do some reading
- knock some things off the other list

i also wanted to go to a foster the people concert because i love the band so much. i do not think i ever liked so many songs on a single album of any band. it would be rare for me to have more than 5 songs by the same artist or band. anyway, since it clashes with the summer vacation my mom has planned, i do not think i am going to go to the concert. i do not know. :c i want to, but i asked my mom to buy me a foster the people concert poster (the orange one with the balloons) because i do not have a paypal account. and since my chances of going to the actual concert to see them are very slim, it is the... decent alternative. it is a creative poster. i really love the orange and the composition of the whole piece. it's vintage but it's 'hip' and modern.

it should be an interesting summer.
maybe even more interesting with school. i never took summer classes/courses in high school, but in college, it seems like a good choice to get more credits.

thanks for reading and have a wonderful day.